8- the light

ever since

something has shifted

I know I’m not hurting I’m healing

To tap in and feel a deeper feeling

That brings different meaning

to find the peace among the screaming

missing what it feels like to be dreaming

on present me future me is leaning

I am scheming and teaming

Up

With the light to fight my demons

growing through what I’m going through

who waters me? very few

this intervention has been overdue

to the edge of my mind I go and canoe

so over cloudy skies I wanna see a different hue

too much self analyzing but what else is new

if the light was a food then I would chew slow

forever savor the flavor

for a quick vacation I roll some up in the paper

It got me floating

my mind exposing signs I’ve been avoiding that need decoding

over my words I’ve been choking

parts of my soul were scattered that need sewing I had to

gather myself together before there was nothing to gather at all,

for when Heavens warning bell sounds

do i answer the call or let it all fall

can’t let the vibe be fuck it , just let it ball.

my greatest moment of intimacy

was not the act of taking off my clothes

it was to witness myself outside of my body

and have the light look at me too,

to view myself in a positive way to

speak intentionally and brew

a brighter me I will pursue

for younger me who didn’t have a clue

on how to grow up I just added that to the queue of other things I’m learning to do

learning to reflect what I desire

mimesis mirror what I admire

to embody a better me that’s higher

I see the light.

next: pre-blue