love: the only exception

“I replace love with your name, the meaning does not change”

I need I need

You know you need

We flow when we have…

New feelings unsure of it’s meaning

Is this what it feels to feel 

Love

I thought that I was dreaming

to be real,

my chest hurts but I know healthy can trigger healing,

to experience such a gift,

it brings so many emotions,

emotion is word play for energy in motion,

you make me feel a different emotion.

This is bliss.

Is this quick?

I am

trying to say my blurry vision is fixed.

I know what I feel with you

is this another trick or something real,

I never seen you before

you look like a sent real friend that can heal,

I check my eyes there is no rose to peel 

so this must the bloom of something 

to be frank

I had no chance to prepare

I couldn’t see you coming

I heard they call you 

Love 

You are an easy mask to make

This one is new I fear you’re true

I’ve seen you fall and not break,

you’re so unusual

you always give and rarely take,

I don’t yet get that.

So I don’t know if I want to know you 

Love

I don’t know how to hold you

Love 

Bruised my lungs and liver so my heart doesn’t hurt,

it has too many times so I’ve been extra selfish and put me first 

Love

You've changed my mind, you confuse me,

I laugh with my whole body you naturally amuse me

Muse me

Love

So many things I've got to tell you but I'm afraid I don't know how,

'Cause there's a possibility you'll look at me differently.

Love,

Ever since the first moment, I heard your hello

I knew that by you being in my life,

things would have to change.

For example I’m hoping we could have matching last names

I want you for better or worse I-

I don’t know

everything is different

I need help,

what and who do I become now that I’ve put you first.

I think I’m falling you keep helping me get up,

 can’t help but look at you my eyes are stuck.

They sometimes have a tendency

to gaze at you religiously

I don’t mean that fictitiously

I meant that like literally

changing the core values of my new found identity.

Love,

 how do I speak your language?

You came around

everything became more real

and it makes me feel more at my core

things I cannot continue to ignore

the pieces my mind abhors of the person you would wish to never know

and I was 

 So see

my sweet Love,

You still frequently peek behind the mask of my go-to sheep,

unmoved by what would make others leap

All I can say is that what I feel

If I admit this then it’s really real

in my body

In my soul

I feel for you deep 

Love

If I see you in my sleep it is a dream I’d never leave.

This is a transformation all my days now, they changing

I got my sent angel no more Satan

it’s only right that right after love

I write my name you keep me sane

soothe my brain

you show me so much 

Love

For you,

I learned to pray

I give praise and shout glory from above

Love

for you,

I’m a bit weak all of your essence makes me believe

yes

you are the pink in my cheeks

Love

with you, I am afraid to leap 

Love

We’re wading calmly in the water, I was used to drowning in deep,

Love

you seem to be the answer to all I seek

Love

How you know me better than I know me?

Love,

I like ya smile, physique

you’re so fly,

so raw,

you’re so very unique.

I know with you there’s more to be

I just hope and plea I have time you see.

I have to address the hurt first inside of me

and when you’re around it subsides, 

you must already know

I mean you write about my perspective in your eyes

Love,

It’s new for the way you changed my plans,

for being the perfect spark that put us onto better traction

these words are my plan of action within your mind to cause a chemical reaction

it’s so much deeper than physical attraction. 

For the way you’re something the old me would never choose

and to quote DeAndre,

that’s the human thing,

to choose,

it’s "better to be human than God" that’s by word of Langston Hughes.

I know you’ve been vex with me 

I'm was unsure of myself, 

trying to rearrange particular “priorities”,

I never had one see-through my cloth you see.

Love

 I cannot hide from you, you see all of me.

Since with you I fall that means I have to let you in

over walls

that hurt has built so tall,

you already softly outline old scars that make me wince

and

 since you lift me up

and

soothe them in a pinch 

I hope 

by the time I get to the phone I don’t miss 

your call.

Love,

by cowardly deception,

out of fear I have failed you

I let it ring and then blamed it on bad reception.

It’s my fault for the poor connection.

melting broken clocks out of time can I stall

see

 If you’re real,

then so is God and you are their best invention.

 you are the blessing in this redirection 

Love,

I find you are the only exception. 

This is everything I’m tryna say

please believe it’s truth,

you gotta know I’m true

hoping these letters reach you. 

My Love,

so many things I've got to tell you

But I'm afraid

I just don't know yet how,

Due to a probability you'll look at me differently

Or not at all.