2- please

how you touch my soul from the outside,

permeate my ego and my pride.

you see right through me as if I’m made of glass,

I can’t keep secrets from you

my mouth doesn’t stand a chance 

because,

It’s just seems to ramble on and on whenever you’re near

i'm nervous around you 

but,

I know it’s not fear

I feel something deep

maybe too deep for the intro, 

maybe hidden underneath my real feelings

so I joke and call you bro.

maybe i'm wondering about how someone so alluring can exist,

with you its new

I'm confused

I’m in reality 

and my reality is actually bliss.

you love me so and I don’t know why,

I try and fight you 

you just hold me and sigh. 

for every tick mark I make you go and draw a line,

I keep putting up these battles and you’re always on the front line. 

always. 

ready to save me though I claim I don’t need saving

you are the essence of grace,

 you truly are amazing. 

Please.

I want to see me from your point of view, 

I need to know what exactly in me is moving you

and if it ever ceases, will we cease too?

I don’t want you to leave, I don’t want to feel the blues,

I don’t want you to be part of just now 

 then watch you disappear

I fear 

Nothing near me will ever be the same, 

So

Is this just another moment 

is this just a part of life’s game

Why me? I ask and I think that’s the issue,

It just feels too good to be true

I’m just being honest with you.

I keep asking why instead of letting the blessing that you bless me, 

I'm gonna ask you a question and I’ll ask you it directly. 

where are we going?

I really need to know. 

did you mean what you said or was it all for show?

please, I’d like to know.

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